Dating

What is dating?

For me, dating starts out with excitement, anticipation, and wonder. But after a month or two dating for me turns into heartache, tears and sleepless nights.

For anyone who knows me I tend to put a lot into dating, especially if I like the guy. Things go well for some time and I'm happy, thinking this could potentially turn into something really good.

Then I hit the one month mark, or in this last case, the two month mark. Things always tend to go south for me at this time. I'm not sure why. I wish someone could tell me what I'm doing wrong because there has to be something. They all tell me I'm a wonderful person, I'm pretty, smart and a great catch but that all means nothing when I'm being told that things aren't really working.

I am going to take a break from dating. A break from getting let down. Time to let my heart put the pieces back together.

To me, dating has not been easy. I've been let down by guys, specifically one, who I saw great potential with. Each time a guy tells me he's just not feeling it, my self confidence goes down the drain and my hope for finding the person I'm supposed to spend my life with diminishes just a little.

I'm almost 30 and I'm single. This is not how I envisioned my life going whatsoever. Honestly it really hurts me to stop and think about where I'm at in life when it comes to dating.

I just want to give someone all this love that I have to offer. I want to share my day and my excitement for things to come with someone. I have so much to give another person but nobody to give it to. :(