a good day...

Today was a really good day. I think the first day that I didn't feel somewhat down, or highly unmotivated. In fact, I've had quite a bit of energy all day. I feel like I'm on an emotional high.

I also spent quite a bit of time with my mom. I had a blast. I feel like it was our best day we've had in a long time. We took her car down to Les Schwab earlier and while that was getting done, we returned cans. I feel like such a bum, but she gives me the money we get back from the cans so I actually enjoy doing it! Mom made such a yummy dinner tonight for the two of us. She made some salmon that had this amazing bacon, garlic sauce creation that she made up. We enjoyed our meal out on the deck. It was a beautiful night, minus the smoke in the air from all the fires. After dinner, we went to Costco. I usually get stressed out when I go there, but this trip was honestly so much fun. We just kind of wandered and laughed at so many different things. We went on a walk after we got back home. It felt great to get out of the house, minus the dog that tried to eat me through a fence. I am so jumpy lately and that's the second dog in two days that has scared the crap out of me. No more dogs growling and barking at us! Overall, we really didn't do anything too exciting but I feel like I was in such a good mood that anything would've been fun. It was such a wonderful day with my amazing mom and I couldn't of pictured a better day. :)

Everyone keeps saying everything happens for a reason and I really believe it does. I feel like I have undergone everything in the past few months to get where I am today. I am getting stronger each day and I realize how much I have to look forward to. I'm so glad that I have been able to get to where I am today. I am enjoying my life and cherishing every moment I can. 

unexpected goodness...

Well, it's been a couple weeks since I last wrote and so much has happened, I don't even know where to begin. I suppose I'll go back to the last blog post and try to fill you all in...

Some of you know I've been thinking about moving up to Washington. I've been thinking about this for quite some time now and now there's really nothing holding me back. I have wanted to be up there so I could be closer to my sister. I can't imagine... in fact, it makes me almost sick to my stomach to think about her and Dan starting a family and me being 5 hours away. I want to be able to experience the whole thing with her, from the pregnancy to raising their first baby. I want to be able to be close and be able to see my first niece or nephew all the time. I can't imagine it being any other way. So, this thought has become more of a reality. Of course I will miss everyone here like crazy! I promise I will come back home to visit as often as I can. It will probably be a few months before I am able to move up there. 

Overall, I feel like my life is falling into place. I still have quite a few down moments and moments of anxiety, but I am drastically better than before. I have a new sense of hope for my life and I'm excited for my future. Oh, and as for my memory... although most of the lost memories haven't returned, my ability to retain new memories is getting better each day. I want to thank everyone who has been there for me through everything. I really feel like I know who my true friends are now (not that I didn't have it pretty figured out before). I just want those who really stepped up this past month or so to know that it hasn't gone unnoticed. I really appreciate everyone of you and every little thing you've done. You have all been such a huge part of my healing and I have my life to thank you all for.