Wow! It's hard to believe it's been since September that I've written... I guess I have more catching up to do than I thought. I will try to be brief and sum everything up somewhat quickly (cause those who really know me, know I take forever to tell any story ~ I get this from my dad). Not sure where to start... but I guess we'll go back to September.
I started my new job and everything went really well up until I started having panic attacks from anxiety. I ended up losing my job shortly after the attacks started. Losing my job didn't help with the anxiety, in fact it made things worse. I was set to lose my insurance and that caused a whole new set of concern. How was I supposed to get the help I needed when I had about two weeks before I had to start paying an arm and a leg for insurance? I had no choice and I am very thankful to have the support system I do. My parents have been wonderful through everything and I couldn't of gotten through this without them. I also had amazing support coming out my ears from my boyfriend, family and friends. I can never express how thankful I am to everyone that reached out to me during the hard times... thank you from the bottom of my heart.
So I think that brings us up to more of the current day. I have been working on myself everyday and I feel the best I've ever felt. I have had the time to strengthen so many of my relationships with my family and friends. I have gained an amazing new best friend... I think you know who you are. ;) Needless to say, things have really been going good.
The reason I'm writing this, isn't for any sort of attention. I want to bring to more people's attention that anxiety and depression isn't something to be ashamed of. Odds are, you are surrounded by at least one person who has dealt with anxiety, depression or both at one point in time, or that deals with it on a regular basis. It is nothing that is 'wrong' and it's not a sign of weakness. If anything, I think admitting it shows strength. I want to be a source for those who have questions. I want to be able to use what I've been through to help others. I don't want people to be treated any different because of it. I felt like people were tip-toeing around me after everything happened and if there's one thing I've learned, it's that people who are dealing with anxiety and depression do not want to be treated any differently that any other 'normal' person. So please, if you don't understand it, please be considerate, ask me questions. Please don't discriminate against people who deal with it directly or indirectly. Please open up your mind and try to be the friend that they need in that very moment of struggle.
I think that's all for now, but I will try to be much better about writing and keeping updated. I enjoy writing as an outlet no matter how many people actually read this. Hope everyone is doing well and I hope I can make a difference. Please help me to do so...
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