First of all, I want to say Happy New Year! I hope that everyone had a safe and wonderful holiday season. I know I did. This past year has been one of the best for me. From becoming an aunt and a girlfriend, life has been going pretty darn good.
Abigail Grace is one of the best things that has ever happened in my life. Becoming an aunt has been full of so much love and happiness. I have a love for my niece that I couldn't of ever imagined having for any one person. I'm so proud to call her my niece. I love to show her off. She's not only the most beautiful little girl but she's also brought so much joy to so many. I've watched my little sister grow into a mother, one of the best mother's I know. She's so patient and so great at teaching Abby so much. Abigail is so smart and happy. She's got such a beautiful soul. Just the pure thought of her brings a smile to my heart.
Hannah, Dan and Abby moved down to San Diego for four months this past August. It was so incredibly hard for me and I've really laid my life down here in Washington. Not having my best friend, my sister, here by my side was tough. I knew it was going to be hard but I felt a sense of aloneness that I don't think I've ever felt before. I believe that in a way, it was a really good thing though. I will cherish and really focus on spending time with her once she is back. You don't realize how much you truly take for granted, like time, until it's taken away from you. I feel like so much has happened in these past four months but I know it'll just strengthen the relationship I have with my sister, Dan and Abigail.
One of the ways I was able to get through the past four months without a breakdown was because of the people I was surrounded by. I've made new lifelong friends this last year. Sean, being one of them, has been such a great support. He's helped me become more in control of my anxiety... it is just one of many good things he's brought out in me. I have been working my butt off between school and work. I'm going to school 3 days a week, 11 hours a day, and also working 3 other days as a server at Red Robin. This leaves just one day off a week. At times, I'll be honest, I want to scream... pull my hair out. Seeing the look on Sean's face and hearing how proud he is of me, makes this all so worth it. I know it's a temporary situation and once I'm done with school, life will settle down and become more 'normal'. Hearing that he is proud of me, makes me remember to be proud of myself. I am doing a lot and I'm doing a pretty darn good job.
Sean means a lot to me. A lot more than I think he even knows. I love him with all of my being and I feel so blessed to have met such a wonderful man. He is so supportive of everything I do and always has my best interest in mind. He is creating a future not only for himself, but for us.
He has an amazing family who I love to spend time with. They've welcomed me with such open arms and I am so beyond thankful. Things with Sean and I have been going wonderfully. I was able to spend Christmas Eve and Christmas Day with him and his family. Unfortunately I've been sick with a cold this past week, so I spend New Years Eve in bed. I know that we'll have many more New Years to celebrate together, so I'm not too worried.
